Sooooooooooo I have decided that I am going to be one of those old ladies who own like 50 cats and no husband to show for it. I'm gonna work at a fast food joint and spend all my money on nothing but cat litter and my old trailer. Why?
Why?!
Because on a friday night I am doing NOTHING but watching movies over and over again BY MYSELF while my sisters are out with friends......#sadlife
So yeah.
My only friend is my blanket and my stuffed animal Charley. They're good people...things...? They're real to me. Whateves.
Oh...and Eli is off being cool at a football game. He's so rad (no sarcasm intended)... :)
f;aldkjf;lfkiujtpoiurptoiewj;lkagj;kljfoiutfreopiurwekijr;lj;al <<<<<<<<<<How I feel right now.
Oh! And, here's a story. It goes like this...
*Izzy walks into playroom...
Izzy: Sammy! Why you alone?!
Me: Uh...I have no friends
Izzy: What about Leska (Lexie) and Eli!?
Me: They don't like me anymore. I'm a sad teenager
Izzy: Well, that sucks but I still love you
Me: Oh good..I'm glad. Would you love me if I had lots of cats?
Izzy: No. You'd be stinky.
Me: Oh. I see how it is.
Izzy: Cats are bad. Um..Sammy Eli doesn't like cats.
Me: #foreveralone
I tend to go off on tangents in my wee lil brain and they're possiblyNO literally ARE the best tangents in the world. You know, often times girls have that cliche dream of being a princess and finding their one true love and being swept off their feet and carried into a palace where they can have peaceful slumbers and dream of pink fluffy things and candy. NOT! ME! Mine are about things like...
Bungee jumping off Mt. Rainer (Note: Please keep in mind that these are, in fact, daydreams and aren't exactly at all feasible nor will I ever have the guts to ACTUALLY do it. For if I did, I would have attractive men falling at my feet. Side Note: I have one attractive guy falling at my feet-Eli-so maybe I am doing something right...just a thought laydays!:))
Being attacked by a demon bear that wants to eat my brains out and I pull some kung-fu magic out of my back pocket and kick his teeth in and finger shoot him. (that's where you like take your fingers and poke them REALLY hard in the eye. However, I don't see how I would be able to actually do it as I would probably pee my pants hardcore if I was actually in front of a pear that was a demon and wanted to eat my brains. That's only slightly scary. SLIGHTLY! I'm gangster so no big deal or anything.)
AND!!!
My one really girly daydream is, in fact, being swept off my feet and being brought to a palace.
As a random little tidbit of my day...
I went to the mall today with Hannah, Lexie and Claire and there was a shirt with Jesus on it on the crucifix. On the top it said "Come At Me Bro" ....I'm not really sure how I feel about it. :/
As shown below...
You let me know how you feel about it and then I will calculate all of the feelings and set my feelings in accordance.
As another tidbit of my day...
At the mall with said people above we were in Forever 21 (let me take a second to breathe as that store is very much heaven to my soul.) and we saw endless amount of LDS missionaries which BTWS people! I want to be one so I was all googly eyed over them because, I'm sorry, but missionaries are so attractive. I want to be attractive...not that I'm not now, cuz I am but ya know...GET ON MY LEVEL!
That is all. The end.
P.S.- This post makes absolutely no sense what so ever..not really sure how I should feel about this either. I'm ashamed. I'm just gonna go cry in a corner about my loss of thought and lack of smarticles to write a blog post that makes sense or at least has any relevancy at all.
SO! Last night was this "Kindergarten Stake Dance" where everyone dresses up like a kindergartner (I wore dresses LITERALLY everyday so I wasn't gonna dress up. I didn't want to wear a dress.) So! My goal for the night (mind you I had ONE shouldn't be hard to fulfill right?!? WRONG.)
Samantha's Goal: Get Eli to ask me to dance
We walk into the dance and Eli immediately walks over to request a song.
SAM'S THOUGHT: SWEET! HE'S GONNA REQUEST AN AMAZINGLY AWESOME SONG (SLOW SONG MIND YOU) AND WE'RE GONNA DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY BEING COMPLETELY BLINDED BY EACH OTHER AND STARING ALL NIGHT INTO HIS EYES BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT WE DO! 1st Slow Song: I stare at him and instead of dancing we....get this.....color. -.- 2nd Slow Song: REDEMPTION TIME! Eli is gonna ask me to dance and I can stare into those eyes and dance superdy slow........EXCEPT not. Round 2 passes just as quickly as round 1. And, get this, we're still coloring. *I tell my sister to go request a couple songs (special songs) to get Eli to ask. Didn't work. They didn't have them. :( * 3rd Slow Song: T-SWIZZLE! Romeo and Juliet. This. Is gonna happen. Eli gets up and walks away. THE HECK?! Bobby Baddley (Super cool dude.) Asks me to dance. Am I gonna say no?! OF COURSE NOT! We dance and Eli gives me the evil eye. :/ I felt bad because I really wanted to dance with that kid because we are, after all, a couple. I should put that Eli (bless his heart) was going to ask me since this song is one of his favorites and I'm one of his favorite people ;) (I think...) and instead, he got sidelined by Mr. Baddley.
...We argue a little about Bobby and I dancing and what actually went down...
#4: BINGO! Eli asks me to dance. We dance. Staring into each others eyes and finishing our argument. HEAVEN. (minus the arguing. that wasn't so hot.) Rascal Flatts. Elijah Dean Wilson. Dancing ever so slowly. OHHH YEAH BUDDY!
At this point, dance got super lame. There was literally like maybe a solid 20 people there. I knew MAYBE 6. :( I'm such a loser. ANYWAY! We go to my house and watch a movie. War of the Worlds. Tom Cruise. Scene with no shirt. Oh yeah baby!
I'm sitting next to Eli when the little booger (Izzy Bizzy) comes and sit where? Right. Between. Us. Why? Because she: "loves Eli." akl;gjl;frgjoretiuor4utweoiutgoiejkltgregr <---my feeling right then.
She sits with Eli for a few minutes and continues coming back and forth between Eli and Lexie (a.k.a. laska don't ask why. cuz I don't know.)
Half way through the movie I fall asleep. The movie ends and I wake up in my bed with Eli staring at me. AWK! I tell him goodbye and then go to sleep. A peaceful slumber and I'm sure I dreamt about something but due to the trajectory of the moon I can't remember.
I love Eli. I couldn't be happier with that man. Ohhhh boy!
SOOOOOOOO last weekend I went to homecoming and lemme tell ya! I didn't care about the dance, or the dress, the outfits or the corsage. The thing I cared about most was the man who took me! Ohhh boy!! This kid is possibly one of my favorite people to be alive on this Earth right now. He's adorable and sweet, loving and SO SUPERDY kind! I don't know where I would be without that dude. He is such a blessing in my life!!
He keeps me sane and makes me laugh more than anything in the world. Even when I don't wanna smile. He's truly my best friend and I couldn't ask for ANYTHING better!
Elijah Dean Wilson, keep doin' what you're doin'....it's fabulous! ;)
Dear Hanners!!! You're such a gorgeous little lady. I am so glad I have known you as long as I have. :) You're truly amazing and you surprise me everyday!! I look up to you brohan!! I LOVE YOU!!!(as much as Lexie smells bad..which fyi is A LOT) You keep doin' what you be doin'! ;)
I can't stress this enough. People are so worried about being like everyone else and that's just PATHETIC! We were created different for a reason. We all have different things we each bring to the table. What my strengths are might not be yours and what your strengths are might not be mine. We all are made different and we're all good at different things because we can't do everything perfectly. God gave us weaknesses so we may be humble. We go to Operas to hear the amazing talent that God has given to someone else, we go to restaurants to savor the flavor that the chefs are able to put onto a perfectly decorated plate because we may not be able to do it so divinely as they can. God did this for a reason. We can't go through this life by ourselves and watching each other succeed in different areas of life is part of that unity that was planned out from the beginning with such care and such sacredness that we can't even begin to comprehend as to why.
As I mentioned above about the chef life is much like that "perfectly decorated plate". The plate is the foundation on which the food is set but also, it's the first thing you see. You expect the waiter to bring a fresh, clean, right out of the washer plate. No blemishes, no spots or stains. The next thing your eyes happen upon is the food. Not only does it have to be the right size, shape or color it also has to smell DIVINE! After staring at the food for a few decadent moments you pick up the utensil with such care and such thought and you scoop a perfectly sized bite and put it into your mouth with an expectation for perfection because after all, the man who made it is supposed to be the master of the restaurant. Each bite is an opportunity for the chef to make it or break it in your eyes. However, it's not just the first bite that you criticize, it's the second, third, fourth and last. It's not just the first taste bud that has to be awakened it has to be a party fiesta of flavor, each taste bud moving in unison. Starting off with the smooth waltz to begin and easing into the real flavor of a sexy salsa, and ending in a BOOM with a tango. Each bite living up to that expectation. That HIGH expectation. For if even one bite is off the slightest bit the meal is done. Our plate is Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Our plate has no blemishes. The only spots are the ones on the hands and feet and sides of our Savior. The food is the gospel and our friends and our family and the stranger we pass walking down the side of the road on the way to school. We have expectations of people, we set the bar HIGH not because that's what we expect of them but because it's what we expect them to expect of us and it's what we would do for them so after all, they should be able to do it for us.
If we can't find that smooth waltz, the sexy salsa and the BOOM in the tango in other people how on earth do we expect to find it in us!?
Masks are meant for Halloween and Halloween is not everyday. No where close dude. What you are on the inside-whether confident, shy, outgoing, spunky, self-preserved etc-radiates out. What you put into things is what you get out of it. So put EVERYTHING into it and you'll get EVERYTHING out of it. Be the YOU, YOU know YOU can be! Not the you people want you to be. People don't have to live with you 24/7, they don't watch your every move, feel the same emotions you do, they don't find the same things funny, or the same things sad as you so why should they be able to decide what you do, to decide what you find funny or sad, why should they be able to decide your clothing, or the emotion you wear on your face? That's right! They shouldn't! So throw that mask away and I don't EVER want to see it on you again.
God is a perfect being. He made the earth and everything on it, including us. In fact, He made us in His image. When we look down on ourselves, when we criticize ourselves or do any of those to other people we do the same to Him. Think about that the next time you look into the eyes of someone else or stare at yourself in the mirror.
"It's society that's ugly, not you." -Marilyn Monroe
So stop worrying about what other people think because the only person you HAVE to please is you and Heavenly Father and trust me, it's hard to disappoint your Heavenly Father. He's there when you need him and even when you don't. He wants to help you and he wants to see you succeed in whatever it is your heart desires. Everything you do should be drawing you closer to Him and putting yourself down or seeing yourself as anything less than royalty isn't bringing you closer to Him. Pray about it. Read your scriptures. You're not alone. Trust me, you're never alone. No matter what you think.
Do you. No one else can. Be happy. Anyone can be sad.
One of a Kind
Author Unknown
My hair is
blonde, yours is too,
My eyes are brown and yours are blue.
We are the same in many a way,
Different in others, I hear them say.
But that's ok because you'll find
God made me to be 'one of a kind'.
Nobody laughs just like me,
Can ski down a mountain on their knee.
No one feels things the way I do,
Or will be a friend that is quite so true.
But that's ok because you'll find
God made me to be 'one of a kind'.
There are billions of stars up there in the sky,
None twinkle alike, they don't even try.
There are thousands of girls, some good, some in trouble,
We may look the same, but you'll find no double.
But that's ok because you'll find
God made me to be 'one of a kind'.
Be Yourself Anonymous
Ever since I was a little kid, I didn't
want to be me.
I wanted to be Angie Bray and Angie Bray didn't
even like me. I walked like she walked; I talked like she talked;
and I signed up for the same high school as she signed up for.
Which was when Angie changed. She began to hang around
Stephanie Bates. She walked like Stephanie Bates, she talked
like Stephanie. She mixed me up! I began to walk like Angie
Bray walking and talking like Stephanie Bates.
And then it dawned on me that Stephanie Bates walked
and talked like Marissa Murdock. Marissa Murdock walked
and talked like Alyssa Peterson.
So here I am walking and talking like Angie Bray's imitation of
Stephanie Bates version of Marissa Murdock trying to
walk and talk like Alyssa Peterson. And who do you think
Alyssa Peterson is always walking and talking like? Of all people,
Megan Williams. Megan Williams is the little pest
who walks and
talks like me!!
If
God should care enough to make
each and every little snowflake,
then how precious in His sight,
is one child living in His light!
Soooooooooooooooooo near the end of the school year last month I was always looking at the negative. I spend so much time on homework, I don't get to hang out with friends as much as I'd like, my classes are too hard and boring, I have no friends etc. I got really tired of it. So, me being a lover of quotes really applied the qoute:
"Whether you think you can or can't; you're right."
into my life. I realized that just because SOMEONE else says I can't do something, just because SOMEONE else may not be able to, just because SOMEONE else may have a negative outlook on life doesn't mean I have to too. I am the one who decides my attitude and
"They can't pull the trigger if you don't hand them the gun."
You'll be able to go further, reach new levels of awesome you never saw existed!! Your attitude affects others as well whether you like it or not. Don't you realize that when you're happy so are your friends, and when your friends are sad so are you?! The key, though, is not letting THEM affect YOU in a NEGATIVE way. NEGATIVE way! Let them influence to do good. This song from Wicked should be what you're feeling in a friendship:
SO. SUPER. DUPER. TRUE though.
So don't worry, be happy.
"If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it."
You have to show Him that you trust Him and the number 1 way to show that is going through your problems with a SMILE!!! :)
USE YOUR ATTITUDE TO AFFECT OTHERS AND MAKE AN IMPACT ON THE WORLD AROUND YOU FOR GOOD!!
The life you have now is going to be sooo different in 5, 10, 20 years. However, whether that change is for the better or for worse is up to you and your attitude and the first step in believing is thinking it so!
So buck up young man! Take the sails and move your ship! "A ship is safe in a harbor but that's not what it was made for."
OH! and this video has nothing to do with I talked about above ^ but I like it so you should too:)
So, as an appendage to my earlier blog post I've decided to just make an easier list. Rather than focusing on your already bad day, let's focus on how to START off with a GOOD day!!
So! Let's get started!! :)
1. Smile at Strangers. "Keep smiling and one day life will get tired of trying to upset you." -Unknown When someone is having a bad day something as simple as a smile can cheer anyone up! It really does work.
2. Slow Down. "Slow down and enjoy life. It is not only the scenery you miss by going too fast...you also miss the sense of where you're going and why..." -Rishik Jain
When we're 5 we want to be 10, when we reach 10 we wish to be 16, when we reach 16 we wish to be 18, and when we reach 18 we wish to finish college already and have a job, be married, and have a family already, and once we reach that stage we wish to be 5 again. Too often we don't stop to realize that we should be enjoying these years, especially the teenage years. So just slow down, inhale and exhale and take it one step at a time.
3. Say Thank You. THANK YOU!
4. Give Lots of Compliments. "The more beauty I see in others, the more I see in myself." -Unknown It's true. When we give other people genuine (that's the key) compliments we are able to feel better about ourselves too. Confidence is the foundation to EVERYTHING in life!
5. Dress Nicely. "Beauty is ten. Nine of which is dressing." -Proverb When you look good, you feel good!
6. Wear Perfume. "Happiness is a perfume you can't pour on others without spilling a little on yourself." -Unknown
SECRET TIP!!!!! It doesn't have to be literal perfume.
7. Observe and Listen. "Listen wisely. Listen to others; listen to yourself, listen to the Universe." -Vadim Kotelnikov
Make sure you take the time to reflect on how certain situations are making you feel, and listen to yourself, not just others.
8. Be Charming. This says it all:
9. Laugh. They say you can burn calories, it extends your life, enhances your quality of life, and makes your day brighter and it's the best medicine for EVERYTHING!
10. Wish People a Lovely Day. Your day will follow in accordance.
Hopefully this helps you! It's helped me! :)
OHHHH!!! AND!!!! Here is my new favorite song (for now anyway). Just thought I'd share it with you!
We all have bad days. No one is met with mercy. We all have bad hair days, days we don't want to talk, days we feel like total and complete crap, days we cry over everything and don't know why, bad grade days, crabby days, moody days, angry days. However, everyday isn't like that. (I'd hope). And, life seems LONG when we have a bad day. So, how do we survive? Here's my own personal list.
10. Always Have Good Music in Your Back Pocket.
Life is oddly better when you sit down for a minute and listen to even one good song. It immediately lifts your spirits and makes a once bad day into a livable decent day without a doubt. Music can lift the spirits of ANYONE. NO MATTER what!
9. Surround Yourself With Friends.
When you're with people who can make you laugh and they have that one special thing in them that makes you happy no matter what you can't help but have a better day. It's soo true. And, the best thing about friends is that they're always there for you when you need them most.
8. Don't Take Anything Seriously.
You're going to have an even worse day if you let EVERYTHING in the world get to you. There is no point in torturing yourself. DON'T. DO. IT! Because if you do...this is the look I will want to give you.
7. Take Bathroom Pictures at School.
Bathroom pictures are the best. No question. Especially when you're with a friend.
6. Smile.
Not only will you make your own day but you'll make everyone's day in that hallway. Trust me!
5. YOLO.
Just think about it. You literally only live once. How many bad days can you have? That alone should brighten your mood.
4. Accomplish Something.
There's no better feeling and no better way to have a better day than finishing something. No matter how small.
3. Do Something Fun.
Do something that is fun to you. It'll make you instantly happier.
2. Give Someone a Hug.
They're warm and fuzzy. Pretty much happiness that LITERALLY wraps around you.
1. ALWAYS REMEMBER!!!!!!!!!! IT'S JUST A BAD DAY!!!! NOT A BAD LIFE!!!
1. If you're going to wear clothes that show off "what you got" don't bother expecting respect. The only guys that are going to like you are guys that enjoy looking at that. You want attention, yeah, but not that attention. Modest is hottest. You think you want attention, but you don't. So if you want a guy that only wants you because of what you're showing off go ahead, continue what you're doing by all means. OR! If you want a guy who likes you for your personality, the way you look at him, the way you are there for him when he needs it and how you know when to be funny or when to be serious then cover up! Cover it all up and see the kinds of guys you get. I guarantee you it'll be the guys you actually WANT. Because I can assure you 100% if a guy looks at you that way, he's going to look at EVERY girl that walks around with her shirt low and skirts high. Find a guy who wants you for YOU! Is that not the point of marriage? Or dating?
2. FACEBOOK IS NOT YOUR THERAPIST!!!!! If you want people to know about your problems in life great! You have people you can trust. But posting on facebook about how much a jerk your friend is for stabbing you in the back, and making those snide comments or statuses you think are so smart, and hilarious and the PERFECT revenge is low. You post about how "everyone that talks about me behind my back are so cool and their life must be boring to talk about mine, but that means I have a life". In all honesty, you posting on FACEBOOK about how you have a life and everyone that talks about you doesn't shows that you have no life. You're talking about them to millions of people. About their life. Your drama. When really, you should be getting over it. People are smarter than you give them credit for.
3. Respect is not a privilege it's a right. Everyone no matter what they do to you deserves respect.
4. One up everytime someone asks you to do something. Your mom asks you to clean your room, clean the living room too.
5. Smoking does NOT make you attractive. At all.
6. If you respect yourself, so will everyone else. When you put yourself down, or your work people automatically agree with you in their head. You will be forever pinned as the girl who isn't good enough in her eyes, and therefore becomes unattractive to every walking boy alive. No boy wants to date, and no girl wants to be friends with someone who needs constant pick-me-ups, and constant compliments. It gets old after awhile.
7. YOU ARE NOT FAT! YOU'RE PHAT! *See number 6
8. Saying I don't care what people think about me is like saying you don't care about the number on the scale. It's probably is the biggest lie you'll ever try to convince yourself and others to believe.
9. STOP PLAYING DUMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S NOT ATTRACTIVE!!! AND IT GETS YOU NOWHERE!!!!!!!! EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! You don't even know how unattractive playing dumb is!!!! Dumb girls don't own businesses, they don't hold a leadership position, they don't make a lot of money, they don't have a family they can support. SO STOP!!!
10. Never let someone tell you that you're not enough. They can't pull the trigger if you don't hand them the gun.
You don't understand how these ten things could change your life. We spend so much time worrying about our reputation when we shouldn't. Drama, not feeling worthy, or worth anything, being lied to, being cheated, being robbed of a soul is part of life but that doesn't mean you should let it all RUN your life. YOU DO THAT! Not everyone else. Don't hand them the steering wheel to your car of life. Let them be passengers and kick NO ONE out. ARE WE CLEAR?! ;)
What a blessing this life is! I mean, think about it. Our ancestors had to fight TWO world wars, the korean war, the cold war, the war in vietnam, survive the black plague, not be eaten, beaten, murdered, and live through the Great Depression, and various religious persecutions. We don't even know how lucky we are to be alive and we take that for granted. I read this book called "You Are Special", it's about these wooden people called Wemmicks and they go around giving each other gold stars, and gray dot stickers. Only the talented ones, the tall ones, the funny ones, the ones with unchipped paint, and unscathed wood get the gold stars. The ones that are untalented, short, their paint is chipping and they're missing wood in some places, the ones who do stupid things, and say idiotic things get gray dots. However, there is one girl and she's "just wooden". She has no gray dots, or gold star stickers. She's just her. Why? Because "the stickers don't stick if you don't let them" and "I made you, and I don't make mistakes." Self-explanatory with the deeper meaning. There are so many things to be thankful for, and that we need to see before judging, before looking down on, before giving up on ourselves and others.
QUOTES:
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a perfectly preserved body but rather, to skid in sideways, totally worn out screaming "DANG! What a ride!'"
There will be times when you want to give up, when you feel like everyone is out to get you, and the easiest thing to do it give in. But remember!!!! David was the one who won. Goliath was the one to fall.
